Pregnant or not Pregnant Monday August 3rd 2009

Jay and I decided to take the entire day off work. We were due at the doctor's office early in the morning for a pregnancy blood test but knew we would not know the results until late that afternoon. We wanted to be together when we heard the news either way. I was in a really bad mood all weekend cause I was absolutely sure I was not pregnant. I had been cramping for 2 days and was convinced I would start my period any minute. Jay kept saying to be positive, "you have never been pregnant so how do you know that you are not". I remember snapping back, "no, but I sure know what it feels like NOT to be pregnant and thats how I feel!" Most people take a home pregnancy test before going to the doctor so they already have a good idea what the results will be. Jay begged me not to take a home test, he said that the blood test was a sure thing and the news should come from the doctor, not a pee stick... so off we went. As soon as we got to the office the nurses asked me if I tested at home, when I said no they offered to let me take a pee test right there but Jay still said no. The nurses could tell that I was already depressed and thinking the worst so they promised to call as soon as they got the results. When we got home I just wanted to go back to bed, I was still cramping and thought sleeping would help pass the time. I woke up a few hours later and took my phone with me downstairs. Jay was still upstairs when I got the call. It was my favorite nurse Judy on the other end telling me "congratulations Randi Sue, you are pregnant!" I was in so much shock I think the first thing out of my mouth was" are you sure?" Once she convinced me that I was definitely pregnant I could not stop the outstanding burst of tears. I was crying so hard I could barely get the information down for my next appointment not to mention get an entire sentence out. When I hung up the phone I ran upstairs to tell Jay the news. I was still crying so much he could not tell if I was happy or upset but I finally got the words out as we hugged and cried in the hallway. Once I got my bearings together I asked " now can I take a test?" I really wanted to see the results for myself. I had seen the words negative or not pregnant on so many home test before I just wanted to see the words for myself. Sure enough the test showed the beautiful word pregnant and I was happier than I ever thought possible. I told Jay I wanted to tell our parents face to face so I cleaned myself up as quick as possible and we jumped in the car.

Jay's parents were the closest so we were very disappointed to find out that they were not around, they were in Cumberland and were not expected back until late that evening. Tanya (Momma Beaumont) collects Boyds Bears and years ago I bought a little stork that carried a baby bear in its beak. I had always planned on giving it to her when we were pregnant, so I had no choice but to leave this gift for her and hoped they would make it home early. Next stop was my mom who was at work in West Chester. She had been upset all weekend cause she knew I was and she hadn't called because she didn't want to upset me more if it was bad news. She figured that if it was good news I would have called by then. She started crying as soon as she saw me walk into her office. She was so happy, it felt so good to finally have good news to tell her. We found my dad at happy hour. Later he told me he could have killed me for telling him at the bar with all the guys around. He said it was so hard to hide his emotions. Meanwhile, we kept getting calls from Momma Beaumont but we would not answer cause we knew she was going to ask us what the doctors said and we really wanted to tell them face to face and not on the phone. After hours of not answering her calls we could tell from the voice mails that she was getting really worried that something might be wrong so Jay had to finally answer and tell her over the phone. We called our best friends Danny and Ehryn and some more family members that night. We had already decided that we were not going to keep it a secret for so many weeks like most couples do. We were so unbelievably happy and so many people had been supporting and praying for us for so long we wanted to share the happiness with them. If something negative were to happen everyone would know about that soon enough so might as well enjoy the happy time, right! I can't tell you how many times I have heard that a friend, co-worker, or family member had, had a miscarriage and I didn't even know they were pregnant, I never wanted anyone to feel that way about us so we told everyone!

Let me just take a moment to say that I have an absolutely amazing husband. He has been so wonderful throughout this entire procedure, I am not sure it could have been successful without his unbelievable support and positive attitude. He was with me every step of the way and didn't miss a beat. I read lots of blogs and saw many women who put their IVF experience on Utube and so many of them were always alone, giving themselves the injections and going to the doctor, the husbands were very rarely mentioned or seen. I never felt like anything other than a team throughout the entire process. He is going to to a wonderful father!